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The End of the World as we know..a new generation is raising upwards from the depths of the never never…
David Attenborough on the most wonderful but heart breaking staple on the BEEB’s Blue Planet 2 said, “8 million tonnes per year are dumped out to sea”….yes a bugger of a lot and I am seriously wondering where we are all going to end up…and how did we get so mother fucking lazy that we are chronically killing ourselves and our beautiful planet…what is going on and who gets to keep making that fossil fuel shite that is causing so much horror world-wide and not only that, in our food chain its everywhere…no wonder when I came back this time, I had already developed a self-awareness to the destructive marching of greed and grim determination to keep wrecking earth, my home and yet I have passed on DNA ancestral blueprints of resonating energy that holds all records of life.
I came from an upbringing of shame, guilt, misogyny, cruelty and put downs. I was naturally being groomed to become a high res people please and seeker of approving. – perfect material for the unseens or archons.

Oh No! Where will all this plastic go after just one night in the Brixton Academy!
I thought I was a great mother up to now and yet I feel completely powerless in knowing how the current system is failing and the idea of supporting and waving flags for the hyper-matrix controllers, that require our free will agreeable to the system of ecological collapse and synthetic solutions to a male domination of old paradigm masters that have created through sheer force and hidden occultism a disregard for the health and wellbeing for future generations and our individual self-ability to adapt and become authentic in our gainful passion to soul seek-age as they thrust on their Free Masons, Deep State, Illuminati, Global Agenda mother fuckers…….

We are part of nature, part of that lore, part of that whole individual uprising, and to this do I offer my kin and baby girl a planet filled with nature, diversity, inspiration, community and a totally changed outlook to the current model we are all living under? What have I learned that can impart a strength that her being here is to come out and sweep away the old regime. It is a terrifying prospect and yet somehow, there is a new drum beating from a resonance that those who seek, find.
And so I think back to my own youth- was it any different? Were we just as hemmed in by commerce, and seeking stuff to consume to feed our fragile egos, insecurities. ..In our age there were no mobiles, plug-ins, Apps, gaming, well not really and it allowed for our telepathy and memory to serve us well as we used phone boxes, ran about the streets, lanes, countryside and parks, looking out for something, someone, some show how, and show up as we took on the new world of analogue, taping slowly, deliberately and the crackle and joy of vinyl being loaded up from Tower Records and others all now gone, books, tele-programming Top of the Pops, The Tube, John Peel, Radio Luxembourg with Beatle Hour on the hour, we had it all or so we thought following the light fantastic, kid talks in the play ground what was on Top of the Pops, all down to your own unique tastes. Of course looking back one feel’s the shadows, and lights, photographs, colours, smells, glimpses of a honey hazed pastoral and parochial past. There also seemed to be wildlife, insects, bees, life! In fact there were a lot of natural parts to play in our growing up.
And for me a hearth, a fire..
I was rather a helpless, haphazard, chaotic and went anywhere if someone suggested something. I was ready to go out into the world to make up my life, as I struggle to find Metta’s next stage in her life pathways of a mix of apprenticeships, college, 6th Form, grappling with what do you want to do?? Bumping, crashing, crying, and worrying as to what is it that she must do in order to live a full life? I had no clue that within a matter of months I would be kicked out of the farm, and pushed to find out who what and how do I live a life when my own parents asked me not once, what are you going to do? I knew I wanted to be an actress, and yet I managed by flight and fight to figure out once I came to London I had assets, imagination, youth, enthusiasm! I began an arduous and also wonderful campaign of collecting things, people, boys, parties, adventures, experimenting, squatting, new blasting open society came at a young, slender, auburn haired farmers daughter and yet that I did possess skills that offered up invitations as I cleaned and cooked, grew and learnt to feel my way towards a sparkly innovative illumination carrying sensory preceptors that matched mine. That I could safely lend my own willingness to educate in the unknown growing exponentially. By bringing my open natural countryside ways, I imprinted a newness in my own making and in the mid 80’s London had the magic and fear to push forward to cultural underground happenings. I continuously had all the ingredients to keep making things up as I went along, the recipe book was in itself, new, tribal, active, seeking, exploring, different to anything any of us of our generation, could really say, Woah! We went against the government, Thatcher and her crony capitalist mates on the make for all things privy and privileged.
I was homeless a hundred times or more, like the men I slept with, a hundred times and more, and I kept it going because I was horny, hormonal and mad for the attention. I swirled around a con-vortex that never gave up. Unlike my daughter today who stands in a different mould, though I birthed her, with new knowledge that I have opened in this plutonian era. She emulates all those qualities and defects, upgraded if you will and totally strong from my own standing of that age. Metta-Angel grounds allowing her lashes, questions, to alert my own lacks as she screamed: Mum, I dont know what the fuck I am doing and want to do in my life? School has let her down, her own ability to recognise that school is all about the results and not the teaching, the glorious old role to inspire and educate whilst real learning could happen..
It really started for me in 1987 – the year of the Harmonic Convergence
As I stood upon The Tor upon my 21st, I was given lessons to the importance of that unfoldment opening Ancient portals to Ageless Wisdoms promoting the end of the world as we knew. Dualistic patriarchal paradigms have been waning through the crack that opened on the darkest century of man and his entrapment to the Dark Arts against the Great Feminine Devine or Our Great Mother of All We Are, and to allow for full disclosure to expunge all the woundings of secret mastery occults coming to a shadowy surface upon a 25 year period known as the Nano years. This period leading to 2012, heralded Acid House, rave culture, the rise of the internet, data collecting and more dreadful skull duggery to come up and out. I digress. And I think the awakening of the man that seeks.
A time to grow up eventually, and find oneself out in the milieu of self. My generation in that period stopped drinking in lobbyist Public bars, and pubs, whilst we were in fields with fires, dancing together not at the stage but with each other in the wilderness of beats, drums, whistles, anywhere that would house music our chance meetings. Warehouses, churches, anywhere that was liberated by the spirit of the times to break away from convention and party like there’s no tomorrow, unsupervised, unlawful and energy shaping and forming to grow seeds of discontent to break down and open our aims as we met all different groups from class, backgrounds, in didn’t matter we were free motivated by dance, community and becoming our own Gods and Goddesses. We were all drawn together by those times that took a whole new crusade up to the calling arms as a whole new set of rules were here – our self determination for truth. We were powerful because we were mixing in different groups and dimensions depending our own unique trajectory.
Whilst the main stream continued and continues to align to common drudgery & monotony of status quo’s, insidious and lower vibes as the paper keeps printing and we keep believing that money, oil, are still worth worshipping; and the need to know that so long as I continue my unique navigator story that contains the seeds of ancient know-how that essentially create vital winds of change without borders, continuing with the promotion of love and kindness to all living things, then we all have that self germinating potential. We all have a duty to stand up and make high vibes for the rightious and break out from the gremlins, and soul suckers harvesting our indigenous humanity. 
The time has come to let go of everything you think is true and hold dear to what you really innately already know, that the divine will of humanity and cosmic natural lore, resonates allowing a parent with a young adult the encouragement of seeking their own course without judgement and blame-gaming. Otherwise one will go simply mad!
The Great Awakening is here…
Everything you need to know about the shadow laissez faire and the beautiful vibrations abound those that seek the path of truth and honour…standing up for Mother Earth and Humanity!
Straight From The Horses Mouth

Is this ‘The Great Awakening’ foretold by ancient mystics throughout the course of Humanity. The one where we shift up a notch and embrace non conformity? Be the change etc etc stop choosing one side over another?

I NOWknow that everything I thought to be true to has folded in- side out & I’m back to Tao, yin and yang and back around again! I have shifted in my so-called programming from being a high res-seeker of approval from external influences to avidly switching my once quite obvious left leanings, with masses of Green passion (of which I will always be affiliated with), dropping the main stream at every level as the BBC 4 talks endlessly about war, about the NHS, about things that drive me to wanting to get wrecked on skunk smack of the smoke world and antidepressants.
The dreary continuous narrative of the main stream is…
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The Great Awakening is here…

Is this ‘The Great Awakening’ foretold by ancient mystics throughout the course of Humanity. The one where we shift up a notch and embrace non conformity? Be the change etc etc stop choosing one side over another?

I NOW know that everything I thought to be true to has folded in- side out & I’m back to Tao, yin and yang and back around again! I have shifted in my so-called programming from being a high res-seeker of approval from external influences to avidly switching my once quite obvious left leanings, with masses of Green passion (of which I will always be affiliated with), dropping the main stream at every level as the BBC 4 talks endlessly about war, about the NHS, about things that drive me to wanting to get wrecked on skunk smack of the smoke world and antidepressants.
The dreary continuous narrative of the main stream is the most repetitive
yawn that man continues to sync into everyday, day in, day out. Why do we do this? Its boring and meanwhile
are merging with Bayers, whilst BASF, Unilever, Kraft, Heinz and all still slash and burn the forests, covering the soil in carcinogenic chemicals whilst planes cover the skies in biochemicals under the banner of geo-engineering to halt climate change PAP!! Whilst the next generation of mobile phone companies really go to town on 5G to really wet your neurones to madness and spikes and weirdness in the back story of the New World Order but…BUT…something happened….Donald Trump beat Hilary Clinton in 2016 and destroyed that certainty whilst the UK chose to leave Junker’s Europe.

Today the world is shifting as North Korea are meeting their Southern brothers and sisters in historical times after 65 years of stand-off resolving to scrap nuclear weapons and become peaceful. Had Clinton and co got back in, I cannot imagine what crud the world would be under right now. The Deep State, one set of rules for the masters, whilst the slaves continue to live under a tyrannical low rate vibration driven by the continuous threat of fear, poverty consciousness, duality, the memes of that world.
I am not saying that things have shifted that much, but the width and breath of a season has blown in feelings of energy, higher frequencies of discernment, knowing right from wrong.
The old adage that the truth will set you free and for me, I have been working consistently on myself to intuitively resonate to righteous, integrity, higher power, gratitude, compassion and when the storm comes, to be prepared.
When I look at the 20th century I see war, I see programming, I see sickness and disease as the great heist in campaigning across the countryside, on the television and radio in Advertising, whilst smoking cigarettes, drinking copiously, shoving your face with sugar, trans-fat were well, ok. That was the 20th century in its money profiteering no matter the cost to the earth finest derailment of the Health and Well being.
I have spent years following my own wellness in what to eat from where and how, to recognise that food grown locally and without chemicals, is everything. To be in tune with continuously practicing the healing arts of Prevention as the cure. To use gentle non-evasive plant medicines, eat mindfully with organic foodstuffs, know thyself in energy, ancestry, akashic and other.
So imagine when I after a long spell sober, I woke up even more and then I saw the game. That polarisation of humanity, class, ethics, colour, creeds all bound up in them and us.
When Trump won, I felt joy. How could I feel joy? The mainstreams were in melt down at his winning. This intrigued me and then it came. the whole new world ordering, global gerrymandering back story manipulations were suddenly jarred. The Clinton’s had lost!
Trump straight away tore up the TTIP, TTP,TSI,CETA, The Paris Accord, and withdrew masses of money from quango organisations running America.Inc. I know he ain’t perfect, but he changed the script. He paid for his election campaigning and
got on with Making America Great Again (MAGA). The Donald has been around the block a lot. He has rubbed shoulders with the illuminati, the sadists, sicko’s, war mongers, mass intense polluters and much more worse, his no nonsense straight to the point with his declaration President Donald J.Trump Proclamations 2018 Suddenly in the devil and the detail, someone was prepared to speak up for the unsaid un-imaginable secret ritualistic torture and pedophile antics run by high elites.
Suddenly the world really began to wake up. This was and is NEWS. I began to look around other forms of media and up came the good, the bad and the ugly and yet, I listened and I began to see the narrative wasn’t right-wing, wasn’t left-wing. The new media is blooming into a rainbow tribal community of independents. Stand Alone’s like me…
Its You and me and jim and john all exercising their rights to the past three hundred years of tyranny, shadowy world governments, all being highlighted through the Internet of All Things where we have all been meeting, researching, going deeper and deeper down the rabbit hole whilst the main streams now seem baron, old hat, disingenuous and insane and not prepared to raise the curtains on pedophile, MK Ultra, CPS, Jimmy Saville, Space programmes, and massive other Black Book stuff.
Trump, Kanye West, Roseanne Barr,Info Wars, Jordan Sather Destroying The Illusion & You Are Free TV with millions of others began to look elsewhere and not towards the same narratives. A call to arms to stand up for all the innoncents & Gods Country of which is the INDIVIDUAL! Not the duplicitous lies and deceit of lefty liberalism that puts you in a box of its them or us and that is it. Today humanity is pulling itself out of a deep sleep, dreaming to be awake as new burgeoning channels resonating high vibes and breaking with convention has a huge appeal. 
I started to really think deeply about the wonder of my marvellous intuition and with the help of my innate guides and angels I have recognised that this planet, of which is paradise, has been not only taking over by a dodgy low vibey parasites worse than lets say a great big one living in my stomach happily for years, eating my sugars, chemicals and fats, but a great big lot of skull digging the duggery deeply, I shimmied into the underside of the otherness & began-facing my darkness whilst glaring at all the pain, greed, envy, sloth & suchlike. And there! The shadowy murkiness Of families nestling their whole essence harvesting us all as they grow fat off the sickness & disease to profit by in all crusades of totalitarianism, marching and hypnotizing us, weaving their batons based on cruelty, wickedness & chaos. So there’s nothing new so what? They these entities known as 
I have realised I have been Stock Holm Syndrome on so many levels and probably still am to a degree so I began to really investigate all the other news coming up from the Rabbit Hole and I found that the closer I became to knowing Thyself, the more crazier things began hotting up. I began to find new media and existing media that has been around to wake us up at our right times. And this meant that the old shadowy Deep State and fake news began tumbling out of the world. And I suddenly woke up even more.
I love history particularly the 19th Century for there I can really grasp some of the people, politics, places and secret organisations that really became a coup d’etat in the world of the 20th century. From the Great Era of Enlightenment sprang Rudolf Steiner andMadame Blavatsky whom all shone the esoteric ageless wisdom’s Of lightness & truth upon that century only to be spied and roused by Darwinians and Victorians.
When the World exploded with materialism in The Industrial Revolution, many Europeans began to fill their homes with artefacts from abroad and from our own factories and cottage industries. The rise of obsessiveness towards shopping, and acquiring was to become a reality for the many. This was a good thing for the controllers that worked behind the scenes placing their people. members and cabals from nobility to industrialists to manipulate future agenda’s that would come to pass. One particular family The Rothschilds really took the whole debacle of owning the people right to the very edge of our life today. They placed family cousins, and close allies in every Banking fraternity in the main cities of the world and the story goes that when Napoleon fought Wellington near Waterloo in Belgium, the Rothschild sent foot soldiers to London to tell the City of London Traders that Napoleon was winning, the City panicked and a mass sale of shares took hold. However this was propaganda because Wellington beat Napoleon leaving The Rothschild Bank in London to buy up all shares including the King at a penny a pop placing their victory to be the most powerful double dealings of the day cementing their powerful monetary status at the top of the pyramid of which they still today are. There is a lot of speculation yet this family had members on both sides and that is the crux of enslavement and mastery.
The beginning of the end for the common man
When man lost his right to gathering, and foraging, planting and making his cottage industries, his mind literally became impoverished as the shift from field to factory was the only way to survive. The Enclosure Acts of the 19th c destitute the once rich commoner whose life depended upon scrub lands & accessing small holdings to living interdependency. Now the man and his family were subjected to working in the booming Industrial heartlands living in narrow streets with no running water, no proper way to look after his family healthily. This was the age of mass employment, low wages and mass enslavement. Mankind lost out in that displacement & again in two banking world wars. Alienated from our indigenous natures…I have spent many years feeling the grief of my ancestry and the dumb downing of emotions as the individual man lost his land and then his families to the Great War and Second World War. I am no longer surprised that the gap that was felt from the huge losses of life and land left the people traumatised and in mass Grief.

Since the Second World War the uptake of prescription drugs and intensified industrialised mass weaponised foods and medicines have created more loss in a huge wide scale rolling out systems designed to numb us even further away from our Great Mother Nature.
The Take over of food and health
And so,those that know me know my Face Book posts from 2008 onwards. Always on the same missions of truth outings, such as Monsanto and its ghastly history on earth to the The Codex Alimentaires and the whole conspiracies of food ownership, the genes and seeds and the great big hijacking of our health and well-being-ness.
We have all been dumbed down by wannabe Big Pharma and Big agency Farmer crazy for money, greed, and the continuation of making lots of drugs to stunt peoples growth and destroy their gut bacteria via horrid systems of agriculture which are now totally killing all natural life on earth as the birds, the bees, the pollinators are all in decline and in our own bodies, the immune systems defenders of rogue bacterium and viruses all under inflammatory guises are disrupted by acidification of monocrop Frankenstein foods & geo-engineering.
I am particular concerned about the so-called Welfare State and its indoctrination of each individual with a sort of One shoe fits all
propaganda speak and the same for schooling, education, television watching, screen watching, and being plugged in to the matrix of industries dependent on our codependency in order to keep making money, informing us via main streaming the constant duplicitous threats from them over seas and here in our streets wandering around waiting to pounce on us so we had better keep Law and Order otherwise the bogey man will come and eat us up and our children. It’s the stuff fairy tales and fantasy films are made of to keep us fixed, hooked and in fear of finding out our own truths…..
So how does this figure?
I grew up in fear from my step mother and blood father telling me that I was not welcome or safe on the farm. I was pushed out at 16 and had only my body and soul to share in that journey that became my own. I learnt that I could sign on when I was 18 and so I did whilst squatting in London. I therefore used what was around me. I was young, enthusiastic & naive. Still, it meant I had to go out and keep breaking down in order to break through a little each time to the open sourced world that became my class room and my teachers….homelessness, parties, boys, girls, fashion and culture were the models I resonated around. 
Through life however, I became an active passionate supporter of eating the best clean foods I could afford from the clandestine chance meetings in toilets, tubes, and clubs. I met through sheer connectivity all the right people who kept my inquisitiveness alight and moving through the corridors of spacetime. I felt happy to be in company with artistes, Musicians & inventor types. I have been extremely fortunate because I found my intuition to be really rather essential in the growing up of myself and the lessons I needed to learn in order to keep trying to crack open my programming of complete and thorough unworthiness repeatedly sloshed in my growing up. I had been groomed to be nothing but a cheap and awful daughter of my mum leaving my recourse to plunder into unwholesome people pleading & seeking approval from outside of myself and external authoritarian groups. Still, I believe that as a child of the universe, all unfolded to keep me alert, aware and congenial as it should be.
In America The Rockerfella Organisation put over 180 independent Holistic practitioner schools teaching Holism in Herbalism and Homeopathy out of circulation as they were a threat to the emerging cut and maim industries that the American Medical Association pushed forward displacing mans innate flowering up of preventative learning as the systems digressed towards patented synthetic health regimes guaranteeing mass profit.
The Rockerfellas Institute placed money men in each school of Herbalism and Homeopathy to observe their practice only to writeThe Flexnor Report 1910 This led to the whole takeover of supplanting allopathic medicine and health to the marketing of Dis-EASE. The Whole 20th C was about promoting Dis-EASE and flagging up all our chronic and acute problems that complimented ironically the mass use of Industrialised Chemicals to destroy Top Soil and old growth forests and countryside whist profiteering unashamedly.
So I spent years researching promoting and standing up for Mother Earth with
my quiet unassuming company that first brought people together to raise awareness in all things environmental from 1997 – I would say current.
My cousin Lucille and I developed a tool which is not an off-setter, but a behavioural change tool called Grey to Green that tackled behaviour from whole life cycling in 2005 with Gleeds who partnered up with us to develop their carbon footprint and how to make small yet necessary changes in the working environment. We made three little films for your perusal:
Parties For Purposes Global Warning 2006
Girls From The Green Stuff TV Promo 2008
Gleeds Christmas Party 2007 at The Canal Museum
I continued with developing my self after my dad died in 2009 becoming a body and soul therapist putting all my thinking and learning into understanding epigenetics, endocrinology, massage and energy with of course promoting organic foodstuffs and prevention at the heart of all campaigns. I learnt how to touch and to know how to feel about the bodies innate ancient sanctuaries of healing modalities and again it pointed towards what we really know; We are All innate healers of our own multi-faceted dimensional beings should we be taught, pointed towards, and intuitively find. It is said that many find holistic medicine when all conventional routes have expired.
I don’t care anymore about being safe and normal….the world has turned upside down and the main stream is dying fast. I can feel it now. I can sense the false flags, the lies, the duplicitous lies that are all aligned to FEAR and Poverty Consciousness and GREED and DENIAL and there is much of that in the world of politics and media moguling. The Mainstream is dying because humanity is breaking down via the falsetto Of victimhood and the self-serving (STS) perpetrators are being outed as pedophiles and pariahs who run ghastly Deep State lawlessness systems. It is getting hotter and darker as the light now shines into the crevices of evil wrong doings.

What is different is the Vibrations…and when you begin to recognise your own vibes in your own self-care and work, you surrender to God, to source, to love & light transmuting the pain and delirium through the traumatic rebirth of Who You Are…Who Am I..
You couldn’t make up this time period. Things are really changing as we are literally living in a Game Of Thrones era.

My passions have been to uncover and expose the dirty tricks and lies of main stream propaganda and every time come to understandings that what we have been taught limits us and doesn’t allow the greater good to grow upwards towards the sun light, and shine individually as sovereigns. I have learnt that the more cabalistic and weird it gets, the deep state hierarchy is on panic alert jumping ship struggling to come to terms that the Rothschild dynasty and George Soros collaborations are in the spot light. That higher frequencies are working to weed out all that is wrong with this new world order.
Trump has torn up so many regulations and things that were killing the US economy and job markets designed by the past 50 or even more years by the 1933 American Public Banks were closed so the Federal Reserve Bank privately owned by Rothschild and co took over of the National Government . The City of London owns America Inc and SERCO own The Internet of All things , a British company.
The Clinton Foundation sold all internet users the rights to observe and spy on us. It’s all out there.
I have surprised myself by how this stuff has really ignited my quest to outing those that literally are fuelled by sexual demonic kiddy trafficking and killing of innocents, from Jeff Epsteins Lolita Island in the Caribbean, Kevin Spacey, Bill Clinton and many others were on that island in seriously horrendous acts of unimaginable rituals with children who have been groomed for their sick rituals…Pedogate is now upon the world and we are all watching horrified that the top El-ites are at it….
Trump has 25000 names indicted at the WH.
Over 15 000 men and women have been arrested since he came into power for fraudulent and sexual trafficking – this will not be found much on the main stream other than should you go deep and look for it.
Any way I am sure you know all of the above…but I am highly intuitive that The Great Awakening and The Storm is really upon us building up multidimensional because Mother Earth requires a new and open sourced authentic mass awakening to take place to restore harmony to the planet, to the forests, to All sentients so future generations inherit a beautiful Mother Sophia Gaia.

I am a seeker of Truth….I am a vibrating human being who is having an authentic experience on this extraordinary third dimensional earth which, btw, is paradise….though the way the world is being run in a hyper-bowl of disorientation and ghastly occultism backed by the Big 5 Media channels and Bankers beggars belief and promoted insanely by blandness and that the concept of sharing resources, cohabitation with the natural kingdoms and man’s higher appeal to self-sufficiency, and responsibilities to a world remaining protected is well, pr’d by morons from The Drudgery Ministries Of Food & Farm Industry Barons, lobbyists & mafiosi who have lost their hearts to evil despots in the pursuit of power.
If it takes the burgeoning appraisals of Alex Jones, Jordan & co to wet the appetites of the meek and mild then let the wrath of God awaken up mankind channeling the status quo.
I am all for the co-creative inventory run and restoration with LOVE at the heart of All Humanities campaigns as Elders and intergenerational smaller groups tribal up and make hay when the sun shines.
IMG_0317We have a duty to out polluters, out ourselves, wake up from apathy, get outside, get back inside alive with the knowledge that we are not what authority figures and history books deem us all. We are in fact so much more.
My vision is to keep on fighting the good fight for Mother Earth, in this solar system and the fact that I now understand quantum physics and how molecular and subatomic particles are resonating and how relevent that is gives me faith.
You just couldn’t make all this stuff up…. Next Stop: Outing 5G………peace & gratitude 🏻♀☀
Do you comply with the lie vibe?

RULES FOR STAYING PLUGGED IN THE MATRIX
1) First rule: Plugged-in humans are defined above all by externals
Make sure your goals are common goals that all others share. Ensure your opinions are not your own but come from other people. This way you may avoid confusing people. By the same token, it is preferable never to say what you mean. Also, try not to mean what you say. Genuineness is considered to be threatening within polite matrix society. Therefore, a functional but rigid and unchanging façade is essential to good relations.
2) Second rule: You are what you own
Plugged-in humans are collectors. The more objects you can acquire, the higher your status will become in other people’s eyes. Most especially if they’re useless objects. Possessions are extensions of the personality, ergo the more accessories you can gather, the larger and more complex your personality becomes. Above all, black shiny objects, such as sleek designer shades and swishy cell phones, serve to augment individual cool. It is important to remember, however, that these items are not meant to obscure the personality, but rather to replace it entirely with an effectively shallow façade.
3) Third rule: What people say and think about you is all-important
The primary motivation of all matrix-aligned humans is to be liked. The more people who like you, and the more those people like you, the more important you become to them, and so to yourself. Since plugged-in humans don’t like what they don’t understand, it is essential to be straightforward, simple, predictable, and to avoid unusual acts or original thoughts whenever possible. Since plugged-in humans have little or no interest or concern besides themselves, it is important also never to infringe overly on such a person’s ‘space’. In conversation, avoid eye contact that lasts for more than a moment. Any direct or personal questions should be kept to a minimum, and generally reserved for extreme circumstances, i.e., when it would be impolite not to ask them. Listening is not mandatory. Plugged-in humans do not as a general rule listen, but rather await their turn to speak. Therefore it is only polite to do the same, and to refrain whenever possible from paying too close attention to the other person’s feelings or needs, since this will only make them self-conscious.
4) Fourth rule: Extreme emotions should be repressed
Plugged-in people, since their primary concern is to be liked, endeavour to maintain an appearance of mildness, consideration, and civility at all times. Any acts or words that might cause offence must be scrupulously avoided. Plugged-in people are easily offended, for they are extremely sensitive to their own feelings; in fact, this is all they think about. Hence, one must maintain a healthy façade of politeness at all times, until, that is, one’s own feelings have in some way been affronted. Under such conditions, direct confrontation is to be avoided whenever possible since this would entail emotional engagement with the other, and as such cause discomfort to both parties. Anger should be repressed and rechannelled into more subtle, covert, and petty acts, so that the offending party may never become fully aware of having offended; instead he or she will dimly sense that something is amiss in the relationship, and so be tormented by guilt and uncertainty. Plugged-in people rarely allow themselves to experience strong emotions, such as rage or grief, and if they do, they invariably ensure that its expression is indirect and convenient, for example, with complete strangers or in wildly inappropriate circumstances. This way they can emote without revealing anything or in any way compromising themselves. Indignation, resentment, bitterness, arrogance, self-pity, contempt, and a thinly veiled hostility are the preferred emotional responses of plugged-in people, and the marks of true character within the social matrix.
5) Fifth rule: Plugged-in people always compare themselves to others
Every individual is special and unique, and as such, more important than everyone else. It is the single agenda of every separate entity to aggrandize itself in any way possible. The means of this self-aggrandizement centre around comparing oneself to others, to one’s advantage wherever possible. The more one can belittle others and make them feel inferior, the more superior one may thereby become in their eyes, and hence in one’s own. The matrix social arena is based on the interplay of egos, all of which are vying for power over all others. For matrix-aligned humans, all self-esteem revolves around external accomplishment, acquisitions, and the accolades of one’s fellow humans. Existence is by nature competitive. All power, as such, depends upon control and mastery, not over the self but over others. The more power one can steal from others, the more one has for oneself. Conversely, the more empowered others become in relation to oneself, the less power one has over them. This is because egos define themselves through comparison with others and through external factors rather than through any inner sense of value or worth. The ego competes with other egos, knowing that only the best ego will win, and that winner takes all. As such, the plugged-in human is by nature set against all other humans in a fight for survival, not of the physical but of the ego. Therefore, innate but carefully concealed hostility is the most constant modality of humans functioning within the social matrix.
6) Sixth rule: Within the matrix, fame is the Holy Grail of all personal aspiration
The ultimate goal of plugged-in people is threefold: success, wealth, and fame. The rationale behind these goals is single, however. Together they reap the maximum amount of power over other humans. By placing oneself in the highest regard of the greatest number of people, one thereby steals the optimum amount of power from them. Fame is the ultimate goal of all plugged-in people (even if only a handful ever attain it), since it presupposes the other two. Fame ensures both wealth and success but takes things to the next level, that of true power. By achieving the adoration and envy of the world simply by being wealthy and successful, one is secure in the knowledge of one’s superiority: millions of people adore one, and yet are secretly despised for it. Hence one’s power over them is complete, and the ego becomes, at long last, supreme, the god of its own world. For most plugged-in humans, however, this is something that can only ever be enjoyed vicariously.
7) Seventh rule: Plugged-in humans need someone to worship and someone to debase
In order for the collective’s envy of a given, privileged individual not to spoil the pleasure they get from adoring him, it is important to foster and maintain the delusion that, some day, they will attain similar or even greater glory themselves. The nature of the plugged-in human is to worship what he reviles and revile what he worships. For at base of all his acts is a sense of self-loathing and unworthiness. Plugged-in humans look up to those humans whom they feel inferior to, and take gratification from this act of worship. On the other hand, they look down upon those humans whom they perceive as inferior to them, and likewise find fulfilment in this act of debasement. And all the while they take pride in their belief that ‘all men are created equal’.
– from “MATRIX WARRIOR – Being the One” by Jake Horsley
I felt utterly compelled to post this.
Thank you
My Own Declaration of interdependence from the State and dirty politics, earth destroyers and things that go bump in the night…

I have plenty of talent and plenty to do and not to get caught up in Q posts,Q The deep grimy back stabbing state, duplicitous red and blue poli-ticks, and raise my consciousness to meet why I am here and who am I and not to be bothered in the blurry lines of mass media control, attached to mass pharma poisoning and mass intense food dumbing down programmes…rather to approach my life with my love for life, my keenness to express without who said what and when and to be truly authentic for my own safety and wellness…I do enjoy underground press, alternative media and other forms of inspirational narratives, but I do not stand by war mongers, deforesters, mass Pharma pushing, Mass Agri-intense destroyers of all creatures on this beautiful and rich biodiverse earth.
I do not stand by those who line their pockets by the blood and guts of children trafficking, exploitation of the masses through the media, and all things that ruin the land that we all come from. I am interested in harnessing my own wellbeing-ness by choosing what is right and what feels good, this being the sun, the wild and wonderful unpredictable weather, the way the elementals and seasons combine to grow up the food, the good unadulterated organic food, the seasonal and slow processing of growing and making, of knowing that the fruit in my jam this morning was picked by my own hand and made at home. To learn every day that it is a gift to be here. To appreciate what I have and NOT what I don’t. To keep working towards my greatest passions that are so embedded with my love for nature, that being little clods of grass in the verge at the edge of the road. That the flowers sprouting up in a city wall, are miracles. That we humans are so befuddled and dragged down by all the so called exciting stuff out there to be conquered, over come, with the constant thinking I must get that in order to feel this. That that of which is outside of ourselves is all just an illusion.
I am here. I have made it. I have come from afar but close enough to recognise that this is paradise. I have felt the cold hand of homelessness, of hunger, of being not good enough by my parents and peers alike. I have felt ashamed at my growing up as my fathers words still are at the front of my thinking – you nearly lost me the farm. I am aware that my mother was a victim and it carried deep with in my own thinking a lot. I am yet also so happy that in a strange way I have had the stories that are deeply sparkling in my electrons and magnetic feels of embodiment and sharp synapses that snap and uncurl great enthusiastic balls of potential. That even though my father was extremely cruel on many levels I survived and I loved my father so so much. That every kind word was to be held deeply in my heart for ever. And when my mother was happy, smiling around her beloved horses, and dogs, like I today with my wonderful God Dog job, I think of her. How animals were her success and joy in her vibration. Both my parents gave me nature and all the sentients of this multi magical planet. The parts I play in getting to know who Am I today, are that I recognise that taking mind altering foods and drinks do not work, that my own self reflections are based in the fear and love of making my own amends with and without others.
I have to say that things are unfolding fast and that I was initially going to write about my observations in Trumpism, I’ve been so enthralled with his narrative & as is to ask is Trump a troll for the New World Order and all the Deep state horrors or is he motivated to actually draining that stinky duplistic swamp?
And so I travelled down another rabbit hole that left me feeling very discombobulated, appalled and reeling that the deep state is foul, anti Mother Earth, and all sentient vibrations whilst low sucking lower archaic and archonic blood chi energy rely on other things trying to control through unconsciousness as their false gods attach insanely to great harvesting of humanity. Erghhhh get me away from that fourth dimension!
That we know deep down, in our bellies that the world is not what we think or seem to think. Many of my own feelings have been split in two.

The Swamp of cloak and daggers, skull duggery, msm dualistic blab blab blab
Are you here with us? or are you a terrorist? That seems to be the level of playing on a field full of deception.
I now see for myself that in my lacks I made up stories and some are true and some are just stories. I have much more to do than to worry and obsess about who does what and why, and remind my self that I love love love things and people and this planet called Earth. I am not interested in those vibrations that keep my stomach swollen and odd. I have had a strange stomach for the past year or two, my gut laden with some sort of entity or creature. So I have stepped up with the flora and fauna bacteria to mulch my deep seated gut into action with the help of Gregory Sams master of organic fermented drinks. I am blessed to be making my own apple kefir that explodes if not careful when opening. Greg gave me some great mothers!
I am happy that I am now on a new spring like trajectory that means I am not going to be distracted by the under currants of skull duggery, back stabbing, lying, thieving, and so on.
I am glad that I have the people around me who care about what they eat, how they stand up for their own unique beliefs and that we are all connected by the great source of life that gives us water, air, wood, metal and earth. I am glad that at this time in life I am blessed with the fortune of growing up on a farm, to a mad farmer who did things his own unique eccentric way. 
When I saw the psychic last year, she was clear that John Manners was desperate to tell me how much he loved me and how he was sorry for his reckless and selfish own victimisation of his fear to stand by his daughter. I know he touched me up as a baby and a toddler. I know this to be true however I am working on now being the best version of myself and moving myself away from those that try to harm and take me to another place that is dark. I know that darkness exists, for without the dark, there could be no light. I know right from wrong and that as my diary page unfolds my beautiful hands give way to my heart, to my mind, to my body and allow the tumbling of words to flow at ease and in readiness to make the best of what I am.

My Dad in our kitchen on The Common Farm..2008

This book has changed everything…
I am therefore creating a story called Children of The Soil, that runs with my life long passion of interrelating to the wonder of micro and macro organisms any the sentient calling of all life on earth, in the universe, in the heavens and in the deep deep dark underbelly the womb and the life giving that she our Great Elder, Our wonderful Grandmother Mother Earth, who gives all her children the opportunity to wake up and walk lightly as our great ancestors did before us and now they are here in my heart, in my thinking, in my righteousness to talk closely in my dreams, in my soul, in my deep deep connection to earth that all is well and that her concerns are that we as individuals not get caught up in dark dark lower vibrations that are yes here, but our mother is telling us to go outside and look and feel and touch and be apart of nature, not the dark web, the dark dark days when women were killed for being healers who had the art and crafts of the fields, the woods, the herbs that scattered across the great swathes of the countrysides, in the cities, in the villages and towns..that each parochial interdependent part was bound together to help and heal, not though of what our past did to eachother in the grim thundering of science and industrialisation that brutalised our breathens and sisters. That the enemy is within and that the mind can be trained with an uplift in the glory of ascension of self realisation of self care, of self awareness. That we must turn towards our own sovereignty again and again and not get caught in the hum drum low vibe of men with swords and without due connection to earth.
This is how we have come, from the clay, the soil, the great life giving mulching, mixing alchemy that gives us our daily bread, our delicious fruit and gracious flowers….The need for me is to stop dragging myself into a place that harms, is toxic, is gray and bound with bondage…I have been in bondage all of my life. I have struggled to make sense of any thing and everything. I am a child. I am also a woman and a survivor of external and internal battling. I have grown up to feel dirty and at times pure. I am both of the parts of all things that we humans are.
In all things on this planet, we are creators and for this, I am no longer aligned to the malpractices of those who wish harm on Mother Earth and Father Sun…I am interested in the making and growing up of myself to become that of which I chose to come – A Rainbow Warrior of this Great Earth…Ta x

Why has the Deep State gone to war against Donald Trump?
Tipping Point is here.
I have written two blogs this week about various themes that have concerned and aggravated me and yet I am now sat feeling that there is a benevolent higher goodness that is of a good standing tall with the giants of creativity and no matter what course I enrol upon, or fad I get enthused about, it lays firmly at a mix of knowing thyself and being honest facing each demonic episode and one by one I see how advantageous the millennial children such as my daughter, is no longer prepared to put up with the bullshit that we were taught.
My generation grew up within the narrative of the NO vibration, money doesnt grow on trees etc, not good enough etc, less than etc that desensitises using the oldest tricks in the book – distraction via divide and conquerism’s keeping separation and the Ego in firm power heads. It’s still here, but its losing its force. 
Last night I heard George Monbiot
discuss his new book, Out of the Wreckage as he speaks about how the duplicitous disingenuous two tier tired top down statism and privatisation as the old paradigm loses grip on its once vital hold to lie, steal, cohere, and bully us into all the ills of today. The past few hundred years or thousand depending where you are coming from points to the implications of mass ecocide, mass genocide, mass fear based low-level tactical and political day light robbery by the elite, nobles, industrial complex classes whose real job is to keep us distracted, dumb-down and disoriented. The Lords and Ladies of elitism are being found out by their own malicious control methods to separate us from nature and agree to the entrapment of their ownership by any means. Since the pillaging and throwing off the small holders, carpenters, wheel Wrights, weavers, growers, foragers into the jungliest of the nightmare of the Industrial Revolution that saw The Enclosure Acts that began in the 15th centuries towards the gradual separating of the common man from his beloved interdependence to living off the land and the continued practice of rituals with knowing the seasons with the returning birds from warmer climes. Open common lands, fells, woods, forests, dells, highlands, water meadows, were not for the few but for the many. Self rule meant good husbandry and respect to all things of Natural lore. There was no such thing as Job creation. Man knew his place without some idiot politician and do gooder telling him or her how to run his or her life.
This week social media rang out a call to arms as our government ran into a petition from NGO’s highlighting how they allegedly refused to back the wonder of animal sentience. When any half-hearted human knows how to interact with animals, pets, walking outside, doing things with the wind blowing in your face and whipping one up for good feelings as we breathe in life itself. Again we are seeing the lack of real intention from the governments world-wide. When we see, feel, hear, read about cruelty, we innately know that we humans feel powerless much of the time and yet bit by bit we are waking in our droves. We are at critical mass times now and the tipping point is here. No longer will indigenous man accept barbarism, communism, mono crop capitalism, any isms really and that raping, pillaging, dehumanising, being treated contemptuously is at the end. We feel peace & warmth in the knowledge that plants and animals and rocks and elementals all vibrate love and energetic ancestral histories as we remember.
The Trickers are now being outed on social media and any one with common sense is raising the floor as a call to arms to standing up for our beloved Mother Nature.
Draconian man-made Lawyering is over as it no longer serves our highest good for life on earth. We have Blue Planet 2 Blue Planet 2 with Attenborough on task as per usual highlighting our defunct throwaway cultures in consumerism and crony capitalism as the root of our ills.
I myself have struggled of late to know where I fit in especially as my daughter is at that delicate teenage age of 15 and is struggling to know where she is going. At her age, I was still living on the farm, the beloved Common Farm where I grew up and had I known I was going to be thrown to the wolves in 1982-1984 – well – a different Mia would be probably on a farm, married, horses, children, etc…my trajectory was to be moved quietly off the farm never to be welcomed back bar a tiny crack when I had finished being a groom at Bibury, and applied to Dance & Dramatics at The Wyvern School in Swindon. I auditioned with Marie McCluskey a once grande dame of Ballet in the UK. I was delighted, took the bus home, walked across the fields and gushed to Aunty Binks and dad that I was now on my way to becoming a famous film star!!!! I was met with no congratulations or support, but straight away Aunty Binks said: ‘How are you going to afford that?’..she had a point, I was 16 and so I got a job cleaning at Hambros life from 7.30 – 9.30 every night near the bus station in Swindon. I travelled on the past bus home every night, walking across the field to the farm in the dark, never a dinner in the oven like the grooms or other would receive but a great big pile of washing up to greet me. I had already learnt that my role at the farm was cinderella like…from the moment my mother left, and we came back from the children’s home I took up the arms of cleaning, and becoming a mother. I was 5. I am digressing. I was never giving much encouragement in regards to my well-being other than I was so grateful that I lived on that farm, fully emerged with the natural rhythms of life engaging daily with animals, trees, plants, weather, sounds, birds, riding, patting, touching, feeling all that is of that. Nature nurtures me. It is All that is. I also tuned into the wonder of music and the arts. And so when I dropped out of college due to tiredness and a diet of mars bars and cola, I never dreamt that within three months I would be in London living a new life as a nanny and finding a whole new other world that unfolded a super load of new communities, new city scape, and so as I am now reminded how it was then to now I look towards my daughters future and go to pieces. What would have happened had I had the support of Dad and Aunty Binks? Would I change anything..well that depends..yesterday I was in tears at myself, feeling disempowered by my failing of parenting to my beloved daughter, and as I went to work, I learnt more about myself. I am a giver and the tone I began with, began unfurling something I knew. Life is what you make it…how you feel it…how you recognise behaviours and I have a particularly horrendous self-destructive old part that just loves to put me down. Where did I learn that? From the constant low vibration of my own family that had no trouble in telling me I was worth nothing, costly and not good enough to remain in the bosom of my family. For my girl, she has me and I will do my best to help her through this period of transition.
I remember that I am part of the cosmos and sunlight and that I am here to keep learning, embracing and align to fearlessness.
The political system is a farce and is dying…the state is on its way out….top down orders are broken. Greedy men will squeal on each other as the whole god damned sordid paradigm of psychopaths unravels to such a level as it is now, with the kiddy fiddling rackets that are on the tippiong point of coming out, and with the illusions of money and quantised easing, greedy economic progress that we hear of always, GD fucking P, and reductionism and Brexit and Trump and pointy finger wagging, this blame gaming is no longer the way. Back street conniving and meddling thugs that we have given power and whom thrived on unhinging man by cunning and power mongering to keep us separated from our innate spiritual and physical realities do not match the greater good. And that each individual is required to self govern and take heed of that that feels wrong in every sense. All the polluting, buying into the fear no longer is serving us.
We are here. Now. At the tipping point for transitioning that will spell disaster for cronyism and return to small is beautiful and slow is essential and seasonal in all its glory and joys. We will not let our millennial children down as we take the next generations forward to a resource based caring community living on Common lands growing whats around us and reducing our reliance on economical unsustainable models. Men and women will remember that they are part of nature. Now we are realigning with our rich mix of indigenous & cultural participation as we seek purpose, real purpose no longer paying attention to the men of manmade law.
http://www.thelandmagazine.org.uk/articles/short-history-enclosure-britain

Disillusioned and living in the paradox of politics of Love…
I’m done in, lond-don out and disillusioned by the incessant continuation of the droning landscapes of sheer bombardment & infertile language that is NOT high vibing and most definitely not of the truth. Its bonkers out there and so I just have reached the point of no return to the old ways and the good old patriarchal paradigm days.
Having to un-write my whole life because I began to question my whole identity connected to my external drivers, and then some with my earthly desires and easy convenient lifestyle from time to time, sitting on the fence, no longer happy to sit in the duplicitous divide and distraction techniquing views from secret top down shady deep state algorithms to confuse, keep us in a fear-based, poverty conscious consciousness and then the wielding propaganda celebs, monotheistic and other, double speak crossers and aligned to a low vibratory is called the great big hypnotic hyp to hide and gnostic, to know all, so we are under the swing band of a mass scale roll out of repetitive main line hookers, fixers, symptoms, paradigm culture that is highly destructive, ecologically horrifying and has left me stuck in this place. I have been utterly uninspired to write about what. I move in my day and feel my thoughts and feel my self amongst the diatribe of mainlining propaganda drivel.
I hardly use Facebook anymore, just to flick in on my notifications, keeping abreast with counter-culture groups and more individuals whom I relate on a wider quantum level for good news stories and a little adjustment as another news speak story is fobbed into the world of man. In fact I would say, even my go to’s, that troubleshoot and do the work on my behalf are quiet. We are it would seem, going off the once big blazing trail seeking truth finding facts from under the parapet of controller v controlled and that many, including me, are no longer ranting and spewing out our own brand of truth that was once in-perceivable gobbledygook and conspirator mayhem, with the other side of the page being outed as fake news that is the Main stream and the gobbledygook is feeling more appropriate as Trump, Brexit, the boring symptoms continue to fill up our lungs with chemicals, pollution, toxic food, pharma, subsidy rackets, quangos, traffic jams, stupid expensive nanny-State as we bend over backwards at the great big sell off of all things sentient all things spiritual and most important our relationship to the natural lore which have been hijacked by man-made law. We are being asked to choose but not what we think. Divide and conquer are not new. We are not the top of the food chain. There is much more out there and in comes in great big shudders, shifts, timelines, sleeping giants as deeper than the oceans on earth, further than our own cosmic milky way constellation, and that cosmic lore is bound intricately with natural lore and devotional God heads.
Now I choose life in the essence of feeling joy, truth, momentum, alchemy, exploration, self discernment, self-awareness and my whole self is to steadily rise deeper to my soul in-doing and being so I gain new perspective and new horizons come through my way of thinking right from the off, that deals with love and compassion, integrity, understanding others as not the problem, but how one actually lives without always having indicators that point to shame and guilt, and that I have the sensibility to work out that all is not what it seems.
We are going through a huge earthly, cosmic, interstellar, configuration beyond anything we have been led to believe as non-sense. We are such creatures of habit, that we forget we are our own unique guiding lights towards pure potential and inner transmutation that each one is divined, potent and different.
When I went down that 2014 rabbit hole living with total eyes closed to eyes opening as I faced my behaviours, and stories. I had the most amazing break through, apart from the obvious areas that required a huge eye-opening self responsible awakening, I also saw other threats that weren’t human, and in my darkest sojourn, I got to see I was full up of entities feeding off my gullibility, my sexual depravities, my being not taught to pierce the veils of the dark unseen, as I was uninitiated.
It came through all things synchronic and utterly unbelievable but come they did. I realised that I had been probably from the beginning of the physical, material getting here in this heavy vibration, that I first held the keys to all that was and all that is. I saw that not only had I begun changing my inner vibration when I began my journey into the aspects of counter-culture and smoking pot, drinking alcohol and dropping my first trip in 1984 in The Moscow Arms, and by 7 am in the morning, or thereabouts, in that first squat on Wharfedale road, kings cross, that I lived and shared with a bunch on New Zealanders and Steve, my then bf, that I had a huge perceptive realignment with the way I had felt so robbed of those early years, and that I saw the split that shattered my whole perception of who I was and what I had used to keep me safe and in the knowledge that I could be tempted to another way and not what I had been taught by those enablers around me. In a nut my whole life apart from the constant vibrations of the honey bee’s buzzing, the birds singing, the flowers blooming, the wind soft, hard, glorious and yet these were and are still today my reason of being here at this time and bit by bit uncovering what is not of a good and gracious energy, and really digging up the whys, who’s, how’s of manipulation, war, greed, agenda new world ordering, illuminesque symbols, kiddy fiddling, mass declines in every part of nature, as we are battened and waved at from everything outside of ourselves, to keep playing the fiddlers tunes as he weaves his nicks and knacks for power, pestilence, duality, sideshows and utter fear to keep indigenous humans contained and agreeing to the occult of I, the service to self, and that me, you, are all are living under the massive hypnotic trance and discouragement to being truly honourable and brimming with potentiality that seeks the will of the divine and not the matrix fuelled fear fed machines with nasty levels dependent on how you play the games. We have been so distracted by materialism, powership, ownership, predatory and designed in a very disrespectful manner that is not human. That there are other levels of benign energy eaters that require your essence. I also in all of that throughout my life trajectory, have found that there is also a greater for good genuine code that is not the unseens, but the ancient lore of life here on earth. When we watch Attenborough on Blue Planet 2, we are in awe of the micro and macro worlds and the sentient beings that live in this world where we live. We are heartfelt, and we are humbled, and we begin to really look around our own world views for another way, the way of the Tao, or unfoldment of creativity and self-expression through self work. To do any good is not to refuse all things that pertain our existence, but rather to allow all things to be, so long as the lore of nature is adhered to and that we respect our part as children of this part of the universe and that we remember our past.
And so I ran a life of chance meetings, codependent or rather, interdependent participating, interacting, with my huge hormonal emotional and physical, mental and spiritual drivers, every time I woke up a bit, I saw things that made me question and seek some resolves that weren’t just pushed into the barrel of a gun, and left fearing for own life.
I am honestly stuck beyond measure to now resolve the deepest aspects currently here. To stand up and fight the system by being in it? Or to keep creating the life I wish to live with all and sundry and have the character to create a really wonderful life with all its bells and whistles. By recognising false flags, staged distractions, my own distractions, chaos and lacks, and yet I knew I was on to recognising through my own defects, that a time of man’s great hijacking of his truisms to his own wellbeing and his own abilities to adapt to what his immediate environment.
When I dropped that LSD I had no idea that the cosmos was so cosmic and so allowing for me to look like a kid watching their story narrated and told by a little big part of all the human stories, that we have to have concrete foundations filled with fertility, diversity and biology to grow our food and to receive our highest goodness for ourselves. To be able to feel a goddess like attraction, and that we are not what we thought. Just now in my life, I am so disillusioned by absolutely all the avenues that are out there transmitting their glorious messages, their meaning of life, their versions of what is good and what is evil and yet I am so fucking disillusioned by the peerage system, the state, the government, the council tax, the EU, the politics of lying. The way we hand it all over to be fucked. I don’t even have it in me to believe in the Labour Party, Jeremy Corbyn and all things red, blue, green, yellow, it’s all the same story of them and us, you and me, black or white, blue pill, or red pill, living a story that was impinged not nurtured. And not only that, I was hooked line and sinker to love, bodily, embodiment and the assuredly that the counter-culture in the mid 80’s was alive and kicking. Class war marches, hilarious as my first jobs were in fashionable Holland Park, and to march with the banners of kill the bill and bash the rich was quite something and only in a year of being in london.I came to London as an live-in nanny and by the end of the year I was squatting, turning veggie and really having my first taste of another whole life that was interdependent upon the values, energy and ideas of those days. Thatcherism, Strikes, Privatisation and the beginning of the gentrification of the home owner and his kingdom. We were all under the trance of the day which was firmly in my world , anarchy, self-rule and self discovery.
I was always insecure in London, always homeless, not on the street, but firmly in the appealing other feelings that were never to be about rooting down, marrying, staying with one man, and staying in one part of town. Of course I never knew this was my way of being in my life until I hit my 15th hundred rock bottom and yielded to NA nearly three years ago. It gave me space to work out how I arrived where I arrived and what I could do about it. I worked the steps and I came out of another conundrum, how living in the steps in another form of enslavement and agreeance by systemic control. I even had a chat to someone about Monbiot being a shill for nuclear as after Fukushima disaster where he wrote that we cannot live without nuclear as a main energy supply base, a bit James Lovelock like.
What happened and how it shaped me is something I hold dear as the life-giving force of joy, and the feelings of breaking free from the constraints of greed, protecting whats yours, sticking in the same place with the same vibes with the same outcomes. I was a big wondering wander of that time and I wasn’t the only one. I have such great empathic and deeply nostalgic memories that rise up from the tranquillity of the mill pond, deep in the sand and mulch of fertility that has always been a constant. My total desire for all things to do with nature and the natural foremanships that are who and how we are in the great scheme of things. I was always in the idea of a higher god and a higher plane, heaven, earth, universe, planets, stars, oceans, and soils, trees and bees and all that is connected to a greater consciousness that holds higher truth and righteous meanings that is not held by greed and profit and people herding and using that psychological babble to keep the aliveness of a deathly atonement that dumbs us down to death shaming us with the same imagery of death, disease, starvation in the abstract world, and for us little people at the bottom of the pyramid, enslaved, entrapped by fear, self harming, self flagellation, as our whole entrenchment is on that vibration, the lower entity demonic land of unseens, feeding of you and me.
We are being fed lies, deceit, corruption, ecological distraction and mass dis-ease. I knew innately that through living that life that I did, underneath there was always something that kept me safe, kept me inquiring, asking, finding out things, I was outrageous and outraged by mass starvation, mass deforestation, mass sickness, homeless ness, waring, cutting, maiming and mining, terrorising, dividing, and on it went. I knew innately that somehow I was born to break free of the external drivers that had me licked, drugged up, fucked and codependent on the State via the dole, codependent on others, via my hormones, and ancestral knowing/unknowing, codependent on others for everything and yet I went along with it…highly sexed, highly intelligent, highly keen to find out why I was who I am. Of courser the hormone years were a tricky one to balance. I was sex and love mad and went on a personal crusade that pushed me over the tops, into very strange courses but ultimately those very same-sex love hormones kept me in the most protected place too, my soulular cells were activated by orgasms, excitements, adoration, politics, mainstream stuff, and human fragility most importantly. I was so obsessed with love and finding love through my body that I just didn’t really stop till my daughter was born and I was put into enforced containment to reflect on the life I had led up to that point.
My own early years were extremely cruel, and leaving home, rather forced out of the farm I grew up on, I was never safe there anyway, Aunty Binks made sure her game-plan was on course and I suppose I have her to thank for being cold and delivering a lot of broken hearts that really meant I kept breaking my own. The more I went on myself to self learning, it meant I had to keep breaking down, breaking the laws of man and waking up slowly, fast, slowly to arrive at a place where I sought help and I tried to rescue everybody that needed me. I was a high res resonant player. Upon stopping and upon self-reflection and upon the big rabbit hole period, I have been able to ascertain that I am no way any closer to what I am, and yet I feel never more closer to God, Goddess, Gaia, cosmic and catastrophic in this knowledge, this gnosticism, and my faith to feel whats true to my nature and to my self growth. I want to tell you all about this because I am readying myself for my work here. Shouting from the rooftops that humanity is not all that it seems, that we hold the keys to our own dramatic plays, words, feelings, relationships, scrutiny of the Stockholm syndrome mono-cropping and reductionism of mice and men. I see we are hooked on this and that, we are moving away from the dreary back drops of progress and prison planetary vibrations. We are setting ourselves tasks we already agreed to upon coming back to earth. To learn to play with a good set of natural observations in all parts of the universal lore. We are so ready for change. Pitchforks, to the ready, not to hurt each other but to help each other. To join with our tribes and our communities and our hopes for a day that is now upon us, to get growing, cooking, partying, and breaking the law of man.
By creative self learning, self-care, self highest possible learning, I have found that there is no one way, no man-made law that holds real governance as we bang our heads, break down, lose our identities and rediscover there is much to be made of love. Holding love. Feeling love no matter what.
Love is ALL. Love is the way and that means we need to take account of our capacity to love without expectations, without conditions, without judgement, without compromise, and that we are now living in a time of having the masks come off each one of us as we move towards enlightenment and a call to action in the lay of the land and that man has a duty to step up and choose the right way of being and remain observing what is and how to live without blinkers. 
Plugged in, drugged up and zombies on the rise…
Here today 
Watching Louis Theroux’s excellent take on Dark America series http://www.bbc.co.uk/iplayer/episode/b0991fsb/louis-theroux-dark-states-1-heroin-townand the way she treats her people and how there is a pandemic of people using pain killers first that lead on to heroin use…..last nights eye-opening yet oddly familiar reporting on how synthetic opiates were designed by Big Pharma to initially help with pain across all paths, and an undercurrent of managing how heroin addicts transient to their man-made alternatives which could be monitored to reduce down how much an addict used, has led to almost one in ten Americans across the country becoming addicted to pain killers, opiates, illegal or not. We have Louis Theroux showing the world that pain killers made by pharmaceuticals, are now taking normal people into the world of poppy magic.
A few weeks ago I had a lovely couple come to stay from America, who run an independent research lab that tries to understand the efficacy of Big Pharma drugs being pushed into the marketing world of health and wellbeing and how safe they really are. Eric told me that the problem that he has begun to piece together, is the noticeably of who gets hooked on what and how, and how now the geopolitics has changed to a shift as more ordinary citizens are getting hooked on prescription pain killers because the doctoring system is about paying them to take up their drugs of choice from the major Big Pharma corps and when the synthetics likesubutex orfentonal no longer work, they start using heroin and crack opiates to keep the pain away, and that 30/40 years ago it was only the hippies and blacks that took heroin, now it is becoming generic, normal and en-trend with all types, And what has gone wrong?

Then the trajectory usually leads to those independent companies being bought out by the bigger ones in predatory moves submerging anything different into homogenous and generic cultures, zones and states of play so in the end we are all buying the same shitty foods, prescribing the mind numbingly shitty pills, choosing and tuning into the same crappy entertainment models, and so on. Meanwhile money is being passed to potential party leaders and their parties to use as they wish to get more of the power.
Meanwhile the arts, educational/environmental and other creatives that depend on small interdependent whole minded and embodied thinking practices, are priced out because they receive very small amounts of the tax collected to keep up the repeating diatribe of main line business and statism to run the country in fear wholly and profit.
Transnational corporates coupled with the State, curries favour with whom you are in bed with and keeping power-hungry groups elites together by state hand outs that have huge consequences with our food, farming, energy, and when you switch on the telly, all radio or whatever media it is run by the very same sorts who keep up the illusion that all is well in the world of man and economics. And that economics and growth are all and everything.
We are all systemically becoming brain washed, dumbed down, and more and more zombie like than ever before…..
Watching the unfolding questions that Louis asked was priceless television that brims with resonance and understanding that what we have today, in society is no longer just the small, anti-establishment types who would go against the main stream and defend the indigenous, and stand up against the wars being fought in Vietnam, and anywhere as it gets hardly any press coverage but rather to keep us fixed on the world stage with prescription based synthetics opiates like subutex, fen-tonal and OxyContin which all lead to anyone being hooked and thus keeping your customer generally tied in till they die off from over use of acidification in the body. We are now being led to our own deaths faster and more cynical and cyclical than ever before….we no longer are being taught anything about nature and the natural lores of the land in the world, and that when choosing your shopping experience, keep buying the top 5 or else you are being ripped off choosing organic as it is expensive because it is NOT subsidised, meaning it is actually the true cost of food from plough to plate. 
By the end of Second World War, those seedy men in suits called government and their crony mates called crony capitalists, got together to uncover the new world ordering of He Who Own’s the Food seed, Owns Man....and so by 1947, we entered not only the Cold War, but the era for State led governance on a mass scale by rolling out the NHS, which was a good idea in principal, should it have been about surgery only, and then all preventive alternatives should have been the cure using nature as our gage. But no. Get the people dependent on the State and the market and watch man lose himself.
WE have lost 87% of our top soils as we continue using subsidised chemicals to run off into our water and bodies. We are losing species from flora to fauna to animals, insects, trees and seas but not a flicker unless you are David Attenborough or someone like me. And that our system to keep cutting, poisoning and extracting biological diversity through mass use of fossil fuel run offs is damaging our bodies and souls through disruptive, corrosive and carcinogenic neurotoxin disablers that have wrecked our central nervous systems and depleted our innate, natural immunity defence line of anti-bodies.
WE should be saying no to the continuous profitable marketing of main line pushers reliant on our fears to keep perpetuating terror and poverty consciousness and hoike them out of office and replace our old paradigm self serving masters of mainstream fear and loathing with transitioning how we use our land, better resource sharing and a willingness to stop handing over our powers to sociopath and ghastly grey suited and booted ministries of speak and spell.
We are all-consuming things that make our lives easier buying into the discordant and hypno-trancing baton waving for wanting things and made cheaply at that.
I see masses of elderly drugged up to their eye balls in Big Pharma that result in more falls and hip breaks than anything else. Plus don’t get me going on about isolation and loneliness. And what about Dementia and other diseases that lose your memory?? If we carry on using this system we wont remember anything about nature and how we come to be here as we continue to fuel and feed fear with huge discrepancies in the War on Drugs…on growth in capital markets, in land grabbing. What we do is rely on self medicating, self harming, selfish centred norms that are characterised by sloth, disempowerment & juxtapositions bred in ignorance, disease, conventional, orthodox and conformity languages that spell trouble if we dont play the pom evil games of mass production and mass surrendering to elitism and established old boys networks.

And that our only natural course is to take up arms with our own stories and rather enjoy bemoaning our individual status with how we started out in the world, what side of the fence we were on, who we listened to (our parents, teachers, leaders, tell -lie – vision
and all), and what of our factoring in who we are, and how do we get on with what we have here today in this diverse and artificially green pleasant land? Do we ask questions about our self respect, our families, friends, communities…and yet the in/out system of government is tied by money lenders, thieves, crooks, liars, evil despots, sycophants and those that give the illusion that they care about you and what you do in your life, when they care that you SERVE their end games, play their wars, feed into their fears, buy into the duplicitous state and hand all your own sovereignty over…to the above..
So what can we do?
For years I believed that the State was great, that I would always be a green supporter no matter what, and that Jeremy Corbyn is potentially the best alternative we have got. However something has radically changed with in me…I was never more sure of myself till I cleaned up my act and saw through the huge window pains of denial that had been my focus for way too long. I had been focusing on my past, my lacks, my not good enough’s, my wanting to be loved no matter what, and yes I still am a half wreck of a woman who has a long way to go, but I would say this: I do not eat shit, well rarely and I do not go to the Doctors EVER..unless I have broken all my arms and legs and obviously need a great great surgeon.
I use herbs that are gentle and effective periodically when I am well and or not. I listen to my body. I try to drink water with lemon every morning. I try to live simply and with a use that promotes all things sentient and that takes Earth living very seriously. I try to live without cruelty so do not eat my lovely friends the animals. And I am very grateful to having an earthly experience with my soul intact and how blooming great it is to travel and explore this world we all live in. And how lucky I am to write this right now with my music play on. Even through all my break downs, I have come to an innate self realisation, that it is a gift to face my break downs, allow my trauma’s to rise up out of my body, bone and blood, and that I had been looking at the world and how it works, the wrong way around. Everything mattered because I had grown up believing like everyone else, in the State, in governance from outside and in a perverted sense of who I am.
What if we all stopped running around like headless chickens paying rent to some other, slowed right down, crashed and broke everything we ever felt about ourselves and felt the pain? The pain that earth (Gaia) feels every time we lose another species, every-time we lose a forest, a person who actually cares about how mankind’s trajectory is going, about how we live together. What if we all faced our pain and our combined our histories of the world with our ancestral heritage? What if we one by one, stopped voting for blues and reds and buying into the industries of rent seeking to sell you cheapened, polluted and highly questionable products that break down in seconds, obsolete and destined for the landfills and incinerators, thrown away never to be thought of again…into the oceans of our minds, our seas, into the very fact that we are breaking down, losing our hearts to mass prescribing of broken down systems that in my opinion, are dying….If I am waking up from a long drowsy sleep, slowly but surely, then so can anyone…..I often go to Jon Rappoport for my reading on his researching Exiting of the Matrix for inspirational and another way of thinking about you, the individaul….https://jonrappoport.wordpress.com/
And I look to learn towards ancient, ageless wisdoms and all things esoteric combined with matters of the world as I unplug from the matrix of demons, ghosts, entities and such likes….reading and learning Bernhard Guenther’s posts and his excellent blogs. Bernhard Geunther https://veilofreality.com/
Whether you are a user of drugs illegal or not, what choices you make when you start to work out that you are the only one that can make a difference..you are the only one in your life, that can ween yourself off the mainstream everything and start to break down in order to feel all your pain and your gain…….It is fucking awesome and from someone who daily tried to be something I wasn’t, well a word I use a lot is recalibrating, because we all make mistakes and we are all part of humanity and flesh and blood, bone and earth made from her clay, to growing up in sunlight and water…..
‘The State coupled with crony capitalism is run for and by the same old masters of greed’.
Its time to switch over to transition towns https://transitionnetwork.org/where small is a beautiful rhetoric that works when there is a need to change the script from mass-produced to local skilling up, learning about engaging in what we have at hand be that herbalism, resource sharing, using organic home-grown initiatives, making old cottage craft industries, learning about where and what we inhabit and how we got here…using music, arts, stories, myths, anything but a central state of lies, and corruption and back handing of gerrymandering and continuous fear based droning on and cloning one size fits all no matter what, and that in school we could be teaching our kids the benefits of nature, the importance of ecology and how we live within our local means rather than who the rulers were of the past in kings and queens psyche and how the winners are taught in school in warring. I didn’t learn about The Enclosure Act yet I knew it in my humanity because in taking the grazing, foraging and harvesting rights in forest, field and common land away, was the beginning of the end for crafters, farmers, producers, wheelwrights, carpenters, blacksmiths, bakers, and seasonal workers that relied on the land for food and security. The people could no longer grow their own food and had to work for the Industrial Revolution new labour models. They had no choice but to go to the new emerging towns and cities, other they would have starved. That is another story…

The Farmers Markets are the best line of defence to keep big business out of your food security and for you to make a huge difference buying local foods to keep you out of subsidised over packaged fossil fuel additive intense shopping malls and polluted same bland shit foodstuffs.

Yet the truth be known, I sense the world is waking up very quickly as we all want to see our children having a world of wonder to explore, not exploit and see that our forests are left in the ground to keep us growing up in accordance with nature herself and moving into manageable home grown alternatives and communities. Those that use and abuse their bodies are in my view the fallen angels of earth who are showing us that the cracks are wide open for all to see and that Big Business is not what we want, and that through the painful transitioning of questioning all authority and choosing to realign to that belonging and caring for each other that encourages creativity and authenticity at the heart of all the matter on earth. We are now leaving the old matrix of divisiveness and corruption to keep them in top down lifestyles and our great Mother is asking each and everyone of us to choose wisely, no matter……
















